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Name: Jon
Country: United States
State: Wisconsin
Metro: Appleton
Birthday: 11/20/1986
Gender: Male
Interests: music music music. what else is there to say? writing it, playing it, listening to it, watching it. music is amazing.
photography. night time. rain. stars. romance. breakdowns. hxc. diet pepsi. shows. the blood brothers. :D
Expertise: being pretty effin stupid at times.
Message: message me
AIM:  kissxmexdeadly18
Member Since:
6/4/2005
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| so i am going to jail or starting the bracelet on monday. in 2 days. i'm gonna be there/on it for 30 days. either way.
my friends tried throwing a party for me, to say goodbye, and invited a bunch of ppl..
4 ppl showed up.
eh, i wish i had more friends.
i can't help but feel depressed.
this is the last time i drink, for a long time.
i hope to God, i don't start other things up again.
please.
please.
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| you know, things may be looking up.
i'm not certain . but i'm finally just relzing ther's more than to just sit here, and be miserable.
i relaly want to get my life toegher. and my first step shoudl really be not drinking so much.
yeah. that's a really good idea. i think probation will probably help wiht htat.
eh i'm too lazy to fix my drunken speling errors hah.
but yeah. i really hope things continute to look up.
i really need to just move on. and fulfill my life. the things i really need to do.
yeah. sounds good.
i'm hungry.
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| my hear t owont' stop beatin gso fast.
i fucking hat eit.
why do i abuse my sel fso? dirnkign so much.
i just wish i had someone to help me.
iw sin i wasn't so lonely.
i wish someoen relaly cared.
please. anyone.
i need you, more than ever.
i dont' want t o die.
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| yeah i'm still being emo as fuck.
and i hate it.
but i'm really glad rachel is doing a lot better. i care about her a lot.
and when i found out she was in the hospital and almost dying, my heart sank. fuck i miss her.
everything is fucked up.
i wish they weren't, but i guess that's life.
i quit doing stupid shit at least, it's not worth it. but sometimes i can't help it. i turn to it to ease my emotional pain.
i guess i just wish i had more friends. more than anything. i just want my friends back.
i have wade, sam, luke, nate and brittany. and i don't even know who else. there feels like there isn't anyone else.
maybe i'm just selfish. maybe i'm just crazy.
i've fucked up my life way too much to even feel sorry for myself.
i just really hope things start to look up.
<3
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| i have been drinking wayyyy too much.
especially last night. it's not good, at all.
i did way too much damage to myself. and i hate it.
but i really don't know what else to do.
anyways.
today was okay. luisa and melissa came up from illwaukee to hang out.
since i'll be behind bars soon. i really want to see everyone before i go.
otherwise, i went to get some eats with wade before work, and then worked.
got cut early again. of course. err. i don't get shit for hours as it is.
my unemployment cut off as well. fuck.
i don't know anymore. i really don't.
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